It has been a very strange and Armageddon-ish couple of weeks, and that is putting it lightly! Right now, there’s a lot of fear, anxiety and even anger pervading the Earth…
When God comes to mind, I think of duality, good vs. evil, light vs. dark. But is that truly how life is or is that just how we were taught to see the world? If we take away the duality mindset and see every experience as an opportunity to experience unconditional love with spirit, as well as…
And it’s sad to see others so unfulfilled, so scared and lonely, searching for something outside of themselves that would make them feel better. Not knowing or recognizing that all they need is located within.
Broken and battered. Trying to pull myself out of this slump, this depression. Feeling so much anger, hatred and a thousand and one unnamable emotions towards the people who stole my innocence. Shame in myself over crying over spilled milk, surprised that the actions of others still have the ability to affect me.
Healing is a process, one that may not happen overnight. And it’s hard. It’s hard to stare your pain in the face and relive your traumatic experience. It’s hard to think that the people you trusted, cherished and loved betrayed you.
And I just want you to recognize that you and girls that have strained relationships with their mothers are two sides of the same coin. You are mourning the mother you never got to experience, and they are mourning the kind, loving and gentle mother they deserved.
If you were to go into a relationship with him with your eyes wide open, knowing that he would not and could not give you what you needed from a relationship then you would be okay. But would you really be okay if you were settling for an okay relationship, a relationship where you could not be yourself, express yourself and your feelings without being made to feel guilty for feeling the way that you do?