“I constantly feel that there is nothing positive in my life…”

You have to disassociate yourself from those individuals that try to punish you. They do not sound as if they accept you, see you for you, love you for you or root for you. In this chapter of your life you may have to walk alone. And I know it may seem scary, but as I say to myself, I would rather walk alone and love myself then be surrounded by people that want me to hate me the way they hate themselves.