If you were to go into a relationship with him with your eyes wide open, knowing that he would not and could not give you what you needed from a relationship then you would be okay. But would you really be okay if you were settling for an okay relationship, a relationship where you could not be yourself, express yourself and your feelings without being made to feel guilty for feeling the way that you do?
Going after your goals and working towards the life of your dreams is never selfish. And if anyone would call that selfish would they be the best, most supportive person for you and your goals?
Acknowledge and recognize that there is a bigger battle at play, and it isn’t between your parents and your boyfriend, it’s the battle that your parents both have internally. Self-hatred always projects itself unto others, remember that.
People lose themselves in relationships every day and it is always because they desire to be loved, but they never seem to come to the conclusion that all the love that they could ever truly need or want comes from within.
There is nothing wrong with experimenting and figuring out who you are, but is it a necessity to label how you live your life?
Marriages last whenever you see your spouse as a spiritual being having a physical experience which means that they are also on a journey of self-discovery and that in a journey there will be occasional bumps in the road.
If you truly realized and knew your worth, this fox would have not been able to get into the hen house. You were so consumed by your need for validation and love that you chose to put the needs of someone else, i.e. sex, above your own needs. And honestly, you played yourself and allowed yourself to be played!