People lose themselves in relationships every day and it is always because they desire to be loved, but they never seem to come to the conclusion that all the love that they could ever truly need or want comes from within.
I am so sorry that you were not given loving parents who treat you the way you deserve to be treated. I am truly sorry that you will have to sacrifice your college years and grow up faster than you should have to, I really am. But, through this whole process, just stay positive and believe in yourself and I know that you will succeed.
There is nothing wrong with experimenting and figuring out who you are, but is it a necessity to label how you live your life?
Marriages last whenever you see your spouse as a spiritual being having a physical experience which means that they are also on a journey of self-discovery and that in a journey there will be occasional bumps in the road.
If you truly realized and knew your worth, this fox would have not been able to get into the hen house. You were so consumed by your need for validation and love that you chose to put the needs of someone else, i.e. sex, above your own needs. And honestly, you played yourself and allowed yourself to be played!