I feel so ashamed that I am 30 and still working an hourly position instead of one with a salary. My girlfriend and everyone I know has been so lucky and well connected enough to get good salaried positions after college, jobs that come with benefits. I have struggled so much, and I had to take a job that I hate and barely pays anything.
I feel like a failure and that I have failed myself! My friends and I were thinking of going on an overseas trip and they were discussing paying for the trip and who would pay for what. They mentioned taking a leave from work, but I can’t because if I don’t work, I don’t get paid.
And when they remembered what position I was in they said, “We don’t have to do a big international trip this year, we can do something stateside instead”! I feel that they pity me, and it makes me feel even worse. And when I discuss my situation with others, they always tell me to go for a “better” job, but I have tried, and I am still trying! I just feel so horrible and alone!
I am so sorry that you feel that way. It sucks to think and see that everyone around us is living their best lives while we pilfer away our time and energy in jobs that don’t express who we are. Although I am not exactly in your shoes, I understand where you are coming from.
I can tell you are giving your all to finding a salaried position that speaks to who you are and who you wish to be. And I honestly believe that the position will come to you, but as of now it’s not here so you have to keep trying and keep believing that you can and will have the job of your dreams. You have to stay positive and grateful for the job you have now, for the money you make now because at any moment it can be taken away. When we are grateful for the things we have, then the Universe will send us more things to be grateful for, i.e. a salaried position that we love.
And it’s okay to be down and angry but sit with that anger and work through it. Don’t let those emotions over take you. And STOP comparing your life to others. They have their blessings and you have yours. Be grateful for your job, your boss, the money you make and everything you love about your job and I guarantee you, you will receive many job offers. Just hang in there and don’t give up! The job of your dreams is coming, it might not be when you want it to, but it will arrive on time!