How do I go on when there is so much suffering, and there are so many mean people, and the world is full of such crap? I fear the good will always be outweighed by the bad. I want to help, but I can’t read or watch the news without feeling deeply overwhelmed and wanting to die/thinking about suicide. I don’t want to be a bad person but researching and staying informed are so painful I can’t bear it. How do I cope and do the work I am obligated to do without falling into apathy and depression?
I want you to know that you are not alone in how you feel or think. I used to think and still think, in some instances, like you. When it comes to life, it does seem as if there is more bad than good and that bad people win while good people lose. But, I’ve had to change my thought process and now so do you. It’s okay to want to see more good in the world. But, judging appearances and people based off of the little information we have would be deemed as bad, right? Thus, in judging others, we become the bad in the world.
When it comes to that way of thinking, you have to remove the rose-colored glasses and believe that everything is happening for a reason and in perfect timing and place. You have to rid yourself of thinking of good and evil, black and white and any other scenario where duality is at the forefront. People are complex beings and so is the world. You have to understand that people are doing the best they can with the life they’re given. There is so much fear and lack of self-acceptance in the world. And when you put those two together we have calamity, control, and hatred.
It’s okay to not read or watch the news. Myself, and others I know, refrain from watching the news about 90% of the time. I personally believe that paying attention to the fear, hatred, and calamity creates more fear, hatred, and calamity. It’s like the quote by Mother Teresa that says, “If you hold an anti-war rally, I shall not attend. But if you hold a Pro-Peace rally invite me.” That quote means that what we focus on becomes the reality for ourselves as well as the world. So, instead of focusing on the bad in the world, focus on the good of others and the good that you do.
When it comes to your work, have you considered switching professions? I ask that because it seems that you don’t like what you do. Especially if a big part of your job is researching and staying up to date on current events. As of now, the only thing you can do is to try to see the good in everyone and every situation.